me, myself and i ...

i think i have a big big problem. with myself. for the unacquainted, it may not be that visibly clear. there is this fiery nature, streak, in me that just lingers no matter how much i try to suppress it. in some ways, a little bit of it is good, coz it keeps me competitive in many things that i do. thats what keeps me to have such a winning mentality when playing sports and games and stuff. i strive to win, very hard always. and be a sore loser sometimes. my soccer buddies can attest to that. but that fiery nature in me, when in abundance is kind of unhealthy i feel. especially so when its transplanted to my personal life. and becomes a huge huge character flaw. sometimes i wonder where do i get such an irksome trait from. probably a combination of environment, life experience, and genetics perhaps. i dunno. and funny thing is, though im very aware of such a shortcoming, many times i consciously let it overwhelm my emotions which translates to an irritatingly annoying behaviour. which is unfair too, for my actions eventually tend to betray my actual thoughts & feelings. whatever they may be. oh crap. as much as i love myself, i do hate it too. well maybe parts of it la.

got tickets to the singapore vs myanmar game on sunday nite, courtesy of fadzly bobo. thanx brudder, u're the best. cost-wise, keep it on tabs yea. i knew i could count on you. and btw, welcome to the videoezy family. work hard ok.