crash test dummy

today it felt like as though i had just been steamrollered by a monster truck. dang it was darn painful. wished that it was all real though, rather not be alive right now. somehow everything just deflated. shittified i must say. they said that pride comes before a fall. i fell, but where was my pride? mebbe there was, but perhaps i was too caught up with stuff to be mellow about it. thought i had it all. but turns out i had nothing at all. yet. or never will. aahh well.

dun bother understanding what's written above. i dun quite understand everything either.

4th month today. congratulations.