i just received news that a grandaunt of mine had passed away, due to illness and old age. we werent that close, but were quite well-acquainted enough with each other, and somehow, when i heard the news, my heart sank. again the uncertainty between life and death was revisited, it comes and goes and hits you without warning. i hate this feeling, this fear i have of losing the ones who matter the most to me. for the fact is, its only when they're gone that you learn to appreciate them. cliche i know, but its true. may God bless her.

on the other hand, on a brighter note, im happy to know also that im gonna be an uncle all over again. my elder sis's expecting her 3rd child, and i cant wait to find out if the baby's another girl, or if it would be a boy this time, to join Sabrina and Sarah. somehow, the kids never fail to brighten up my days la, even when im feeling down or stressed. i find it amazingly therapeutic when i attend to their needs, and its a pleasure for me to find simple joys in cleaning them, feeding them, or even putting them to sleep. nothing beats seeing them contented, and well taken care of. hmmmm, mebbe this is the one thing that i may probably be good at. we'll seee.. haha..

ok am done for now. am tired, and work tomorrow morning. sian. and i miss going out with the gf, hopefully the later part of tomorrow yea? will probably be going down to the esplanade to catch some hiphop thingy there or sumtng i guess.. gd nite.