well well i havnt been blogging again, simply because i..
1. havnt been online much.
2. am lazy.
3. dont have much to rant & whine about.
4. dont engage in much activities worthy of mention.
5. live a life preoccupied with school & earning pocket money.
and it's hard to start having the mood and flow to update once the inertia sets in.
anyways, i didnt clear my TP test the other day. i do not know why. apparently i accumulated too many points, they say. how disappointing is that? it's damn bitter having to swallow the fact that i failed because of that, despite having been a qualified rider for more than two years man. smacks me right in the face. the last time i felt such hurt was when i semi-flunked my A-levels, and i cant really describe the sinking feeling and the trauma of replaying in my mind what could have possible gone wrong. i guess im just bitter because i hate having to go through all the procedures again, wasting time and importantly money. it just sucks la. ah well... hopefully better luck next time.
and ive been feeling pretty lethargic lately. perhaps ive been out of the house too often, and working too much. too little rest, too little time for recreation. it's starting to make me wonder whether it's worth the effort of trying to earn as much as i can, just to sustain myself, at the expense of other possible things i can do. the funny thing is that as much i try, the money's never enough. expenses are always there to eat it all up. that's why im pretty envious of people who can spend like there's no tomorrow. i see this alot in the streets, in campus, at the workplace, etc etc ... kids who act all pompous splashing cash and wearing brands and eating at places that i cant even afford to, not at this moment at least. mebbe im just bitter la. afterall, i know of people who are in more difficult positions than me, and they persevere no matter what. mebbe i should too.
i dunno la, mebbe im just being cranky. i havnt been really that happy happy lately, and perhaps circumstances arent really helping. so it all adds up. yeah that's about it. pardon the angst la, i might be pms-ing meself. *shrugs*
1. havnt been online much.
2. am lazy.
3. dont have much to rant & whine about.
4. dont engage in much activities worthy of mention.
5. live a life preoccupied with school & earning pocket money.
and it's hard to start having the mood and flow to update once the inertia sets in.
anyways, i didnt clear my TP test the other day. i do not know why. apparently i accumulated too many points, they say. how disappointing is that? it's damn bitter having to swallow the fact that i failed because of that, despite having been a qualified rider for more than two years man. smacks me right in the face. the last time i felt such hurt was when i semi-flunked my A-levels, and i cant really describe the sinking feeling and the trauma of replaying in my mind what could have possible gone wrong. i guess im just bitter because i hate having to go through all the procedures again, wasting time and importantly money. it just sucks la. ah well... hopefully better luck next time.
and ive been feeling pretty lethargic lately. perhaps ive been out of the house too often, and working too much. too little rest, too little time for recreation. it's starting to make me wonder whether it's worth the effort of trying to earn as much as i can, just to sustain myself, at the expense of other possible things i can do. the funny thing is that as much i try, the money's never enough. expenses are always there to eat it all up. that's why im pretty envious of people who can spend like there's no tomorrow. i see this alot in the streets, in campus, at the workplace, etc etc ... kids who act all pompous splashing cash and wearing brands and eating at places that i cant even afford to, not at this moment at least. mebbe im just bitter la. afterall, i know of people who are in more difficult positions than me, and they persevere no matter what. mebbe i should too.
i dunno la, mebbe im just being cranky. i havnt been really that happy happy lately, and perhaps circumstances arent really helping. so it all adds up. yeah that's about it. pardon the angst la, i might be pms-ing meself. *shrugs*
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