its about time that i update.
well, first things first. happy belated hari raya puasa, & a belated deepavali for all concerned. tis the season to be jolly. though somehow the ramadhan that just passed wasnt that fulfilling for me. personally i just dont feel that satisfied with it, with myself, and how it went. well yeah i did abstain from eating and drinking (water) and a whole lotta other stuff, but it just didnt feel right enough. definitely room for improvement. for next year hopefully.
went visiting with the family, twas one of my more enjoyable ones in recent times. for the past few years i had been feeling abit lazy-ish about meeting with seriously long-lost relatives, but yesterday it felt kinda nice and heartwarming to be seeing all those people. i do not know why, just a feel good thingy. which it should be la. ate like i've never eaten before. was especially craving for all
serondeng and chocolate chip cookies. yummmy.. got some token hongbaos from some kind aunts who still recognised my status as a student, which is always nice.. concussed as soon as i got home at about 10plus in the evening, till the next day when i had to wake up to rush to school and hand up the essay i was desperately finishing up on hari raya eve, rushed to videoezy jelita to return the Godfather II, and then zipped to tiong bahru to open the store.
anyways, work was fine today. boring and slow, but manageable. still cant get my mind back to non-fasting mode. forgot a couple of times that i can now drink water and munch menthos while dawdling at the counter. watched charlie & chocolate factory for like 4-5 times, the songs are just so nice and funny. surprisingly. makes the shop sound a notch livelier.
school's been a real chore. each week there's always at the very least one assignment/essay to hand up. not to mention tutorials to prepare (which i seldom do), and readings to be done (which i havnt been doing). thank goodness im just left with one more to do which is due next fri, before i can really start on revision. well actually not really revision coz i have barely gone through most of them even once. but aahh well you get the idea.
some aspects of my life are quite messed up right now. i dont quite know where everything stands. kinda estranged, kinda weird, kinda hard to tell. stress la stress. and headache too.
anyways, whatever la huh. que sera sera. many more things to worry about.
and somehow life always has a way to smack you up and face up to the real world. again i am reminded just how short life can be. just received an sms from an old friend whose my age that her dad just past away this afternoon. i am in shock, though she says its been coming since he's been sick for quite some time already. its just saddening la no doubt, such a difficult time, and at a time when everyone's all so caught up with the festivities and such. be strong aite? well mebbe its for the better, only God knows best. treasure your loved ones people. i will. i'll try. at least.
gd nite..
