i've been sick these past couple of days or so, ever since i got caught in the rain a few days back. been kinda fluish, and the nose's been irritatingly runny. the back of the head's kinda heavy too, so it aint good at all. what i dont like most about being sickish is the fact that the urinary tract gets kinda loose too, caused by the regulatory increased intake of water when anyone is unwell. thus i find myself visiting the loo more often than i'd really like to actually. it's ... ermm ... troublesome la. and worse is, when im sick, i'd get all these weird and out-of-this-world dreams whenever im asleep. i cant quite figure out why, perhaps its all due to the mishmash of medication and drugs that circulate through my bloodstreams. weird la weird. it'll be stuff that have totally incomprehensible storylines with a gazillion characters that may just be people whom ive met in my life. familiar faces all, but i'd have no idea why in the world would they be there in my dreams, acting out illogical scenes that just doesnt make any sense. yesterday i was like shooting rats or soemthing. and at times these dreams can be oddly chilling and scary too. macam premonitions like that. it's all weird im telling you.

anyways the time to bid for modules is here again. all the time-wasting hours spent monitoring the bids and frantically trying to find the best possible combination for the perfect timetable. to me, this exercise is a way for us to display our very own grasp of kiasuism, how best we can play the system to our own advantage. troublesome, and dumb. if this was the army we'd all be yodelling to the tune of 'Heerrre we go again...same ol' shite again..'. many times over. just hope i'd get the modules that im interested in taking la. which on hindsight isnt much of a choice la coz im kinda catching up on my soci mods. well, best of luck to everyone yea.

speaking of which, my results for last semester was fine. i did averagely well, though nothing brilliant of course. im just glad, with the grace of God, that i cleared all including the toughest ones. im still in doubt and quite uncertain about doing honours though, the CAP's improved but it's still hinging on the borderline. decisions man decisions. perhaps i shall file for graduation first before taking a look at the results for next semester, and deciding. just in case.

i've been craving for sheesha. again. anyone? but not my treat la. haha

and i just watched 'I am Sam' belatedly the other day. a heartwarming show indeed. yessss i can and do feel okkk..

and why.. why does it always rain on me.. i wonder.

subliminal paedophilia

really..?

i really dread facing the time of the month, or to be more precise the onset of it. it's tricky for the afflicted and especially the affected, very very difficult to negotiate indeed. one wrong move can prove to be really disastrous, the repercussive effects potentially long-lasting. headache la headache. aaah welll the peculiarities of the eighth wonder of the world...

wot a disappointment..

maann i didnt know how hard negotiating the emergency brake and the bumpy course could be. didnt clear that stage, though i did pass the S-course and the crank course with relative ease. i kinda lost balance a couple times while braking, and dropped the bike like some novice like that. sooo embarassingly unskilled sia. for the bumpy course, i struggled to keep a straight trajectory while going through the humps, body half-upright (no pun intended). i wonder how the circus does it, you know, the one with like a gazillion stuntmen riding/standing on one miserable tiny bike. aaah well just didnt have the luck i guess. suay la suay. never mind i shall striveeee...

the thing that sucks most about having a chalet is the lethargy that linger days after it ends. waking up for work today was kinda difficult, despite sleeping relatively early yesterday, one of the earliest for this holiday so far. felt so so lazy to go, but of course i did end up going la. cant afford to skive.

speaking of work, there are two kinds of customers that exist. one that makes your day, and one that can make it really bad. today i encountered this bloody irritating kid, no more than just 5-6 years old, who cant seem to behave himself in the store. he was running around touching and misplacing everything on the shelves, and played with the ice on the insides of the ice-cream freezer, leaving it wide open. worse is when he rubbed his hands against the glass door/wall, which has decorative snow designs for christmas. that left the whole thing all messed up looking like some abstract art done with a correction fluid. all this while the idiotic mother was apathetically browsing through titles. and when the devil of a son did drop a couple of casings and a metal divider onto the floor, all she did was to look at me, and told me to scold her son for misbehaving. " Aah scold him scold this boy he dont want to listen one...aah boy you see uncle scold you already aaah you better put back..bla bla bla.." please la woman .... seriously? what the heck.. inside my head i was thinking hey bodoh this is your son it's good enough that i didnt give him a mighty jotos when you werent looking. as much as i love kids, what i cant stand is children who dont know how to behave in a public place, have no manners, and talk like yaya papaya who think they know a lot already. yes and plus parents who allow their kids to revel in such a behaviour, and allow them to end up like that. it's amazingly sad for them. and i cant stand it. i bet no one can.

anyways ive got a gut feeling i might be graduating after next semester. not that i would be that disappointed about it, but it's more of the fact that im kinda afraid i might not know of what to do as a career after that. to date, its a choice between being a policeman, or being a teacher. there may be other options as i go along, but those are the two most practical ones i can think of at the moment. the private sector appeals, but the instability worries me too. haiya dunno la headache thinking about it all. decisions decisions. how aye?

im feeling tired. it's seriously the post-chalet syndrome la. should sleep soon i guess. got my second practical to go for tomorrow anyway. wish me luck again yea. good night.

just came back from a reunion chalet with the SA people in the afternoon. was damn damn tired, had quite a load of fun slacking, catching up and just bumming around, along with the standard bbq and all. the place was nice, a quiet location somewhere off Changi, at a very reasonably cheap rate, and had a mini lawn in front, facing directly towards the sea barely 50-100m away. the environment was relaxed and the weather pretty much behaving itself, so that helps. the company was great too, plus the gf came to join us on the second night. it was a tad unfortunate though i think that there wasnt a full attendance for all, since we rarely meet these days, with some missing due to work and other commitments. well i guess that's the downside of progressing with our own individual lives as we get older and older la.

well anyways i came home feeling stoned from the lack of sleep. your own bed will always somehow feel more comfy then any other ones. yeap so i took a nap, it does wonders and now here i am feeling more refreshed than i really need to. bet i cant sleep tonight. hmm mebbe i shall catch up on some dvds later.

apparently my last entry has raised some alarm bells about me smoking, and the fact that i do do it. mebbe it's because i've never made it that obvious nor smoked that much to make it seem like i have that habit. well, i guess it's one of those things whereby you dont really go around declaring to everyone yeah? if you see or you know then you will see and you will know la. haha.. actually i was just wondering la how two very subjectively enjoyable indulgences can be thought of very differently by everyone, when both has its demerits too. it's just like any other vices that people suffer from i feel. things like compulsive shopping, endless gaming, and frequent eating, if we think about it, do waste money, make the individual suffer health/mental concerns, and affects the people around you. so who's to say that smoking's wrong yea.. well im not championing for it la, just saying that it can be one of the many many things that anybody do, or choose to do. get what i mean? anyways, for one and all, thank you for the concerns. very much appreciated...

ok i've finally enrolled myself at the BBDC for the 2A course. wish me luck yea.

stayed home today after that. bummed around, did nothing much. didnt really have much of an appetite either, wasnt too keen on rice nor dishes. ate cereal for brunch, potatoes/minced meat/kichap for late lunch, and 1-day old prata & sambal udang for my dinner. managed to practise my Winning Eleven skills for awhile before the controller got cranky again, tried watching Godfather II on dvd after that. story was way way too long and draggy ( although good ), before i gave up falling asleep instead. bummed around again while waiting for the gf to get home from work. managed to chat with her for awhile before she got cranky too so that didnt last too long either. so here i am updating this blog without having much to say. basically this is a meaningless entry based on a meaningless day. haha.. ok mebbe i shall go catch some soccer on the telly. ok go.

oh btw, i cant seem to think which of the below is the more sinful of choices,

this...



or this..



both costs the same, both unhealthy..
the choices in life.
*shrugs*

the past couple of days breezed past me, been working again to make up for the lost hours used for the exams. though judging by how the papers turned out probably i would have been better off working during that 'reading' period also. ah well.. anyways, twas quite an effort for me to get back to the sales & service line mentality and getting familiarised with the environment and all the ongoing promotions and watnots after that short intermission. and there's a new girl at work, but she reeks of this weird-smelling stink. dunno whether its her breath or odour or wat la. *urrgghh*

i outdid myself today, setting a new benchmark for my capacity to eat. the day started slowly with me waking up at about noon plus, and bumming around the house taking care of the little cabbage patch kid while my mom went to the pasar. had my first meal late in the late afternoon with Kelloggs cereal & milk, finishing up the final disc of my 2-month-old The OC marathon. the day kickstarted with me having a maiden dinner with the gf at Thai Express Holland Village, my first time ever eating at that chain. yeah abit the lembab but who cares. i had this dish numbered 6101, some softshell crab thingy. plus rice. which was not enough so i asked for an additional bowl. that left me quite full, somewhat surprisingly (the dish was superb i must say...highly recommended). and i thought that was all to it. however later that night we decided to join wan & faz for supper, since they had the car and offered to chauffeur us around. ended up in Simpang Bedok for the 1st time too, and again us foursome somehow managed to overestimate the amount of food to order. teruk man macam how many days never eat. people walking past our table must be thinking what gluttons we are. so, despite my 3/4-filled tummy, i still found room for some kerang rebus, sup tulang and wrinkly fries, washed down with my regulation Coke. well yea it sounds little but the pile of clam-shells and marrow-less bones left on my plate bears testimony to my eating prowess. im amazed too. yet i never seem to put on much weight, still the same old skinny fella. weirdd..

anyways court soccer session's tomorrow, so mebbe all that food will be put to good use la.

what sucks now is that my body clock seems to be suffering from the post-exam trauma. sleeping way way late and waking up way even later. the good life perhaps yea but this shouldnt go on for very long, afterall its only a one month break. too short la too short to readjust all. having said that, i cant decide now whether it shall be CSI, or the Godfather II for tonite.. hmmm..

things i need/want for december (or Christmas):
1. 2A licence
2. berms
3. t-shirts
4. boxers
5. Krumpler sling pouch
6. more Ben & Jerry's
7. beach slippers
8. corduroy jeans
9. contact lens solution
10. money for all of the above.

sigh.

yay the exams are finally over, though i dont really feel too good nor that celebratory about it. it's one of the worst-prepared exams ive ever gone through, and i can only hope for the best. or at least for some good to come out of it. but wateva la its done and over with.

spent the post-exam euphoria by having a soccer kickabout in school. played against some Viet kids who have horses' lungs running rings around us. mampus pancit to the max. got a bruised shin when i ended up kicking this poor Nguyen, who had reacted to a loose ball faster than me. ouch. but i was ok, though the fella ended up sprawled on the court cursing in some undecipherable expletives. later in the night i had a Winning Eleven tourney at najib's place, along with bo & lester. after hours of finger-crunching action and lotsa behind-the-scenes politicking, manipulation, and cheating, bo managed to retain his title, with luck being largely on his side. twas fun, till the next session yeah.

i just realised that i travelled on almost all of the highways yesterday. went to campus on the AYE, and to najib's via the BKE, escorted lester home through the SLE & the TPE, before going home in the wee hours by the PIE. that is quite a distance. ok this part means nothing much but just a bit of trivia that's all. haha..

anyways i came across this pic while wandering through Friendster quite some time back..



bet we cant find places like this over here! haha...