well well i havnt been blogging again, simply because i..

1. havnt been online much.
2. am lazy.
3. dont have much to rant & whine about.
4. dont engage in much activities worthy of mention.
5. live a life preoccupied with school & earning pocket money.

and it's hard to start having the mood and flow to update once the inertia sets in.

anyways, i didnt clear my TP test the other day. i do not know why. apparently i accumulated too many points, they say. how disappointing is that? it's damn bitter having to swallow the fact that i failed because of that, despite having been a qualified rider for more than two years man. smacks me right in the face. the last time i felt such hurt was when i semi-flunked my A-levels, and i cant really describe the sinking feeling and the trauma of replaying in my mind what could have possible gone wrong. i guess im just bitter because i hate having to go through all the procedures again, wasting time and importantly money. it just sucks la. ah well... hopefully better luck next time.

and ive been feeling pretty lethargic lately. perhaps ive been out of the house too often, and working too much. too little rest, too little time for recreation. it's starting to make me wonder whether it's worth the effort of trying to earn as much as i can, just to sustain myself, at the expense of other possible things i can do. the funny thing is that as much i try, the money's never enough. expenses are always there to eat it all up. that's why im pretty envious of people who can spend like there's no tomorrow. i see this alot in the streets, in campus, at the workplace, etc etc ... kids who act all pompous splashing cash and wearing brands and eating at places that i cant even afford to, not at this moment at least. mebbe im just bitter la. afterall, i know of people who are in more difficult positions than me, and they persevere no matter what. mebbe i should too.

i dunno la, mebbe im just being cranky. i havnt been really that happy happy lately, and perhaps circumstances arent really helping. so it all adds up. yeah that's about it. pardon the angst la, i might be pms-ing meself. *shrugs*

ok im much better already. just left with the occasional sinus and the odd cough.

been very tired lately, probably due to the hectic activities i've engaged myself in the past few days. i spent the onset of the new year at siloso beach on sentosa, unfortunately not to party but to work. got myself a lobang for a one-time, 12-hour, overnight stint with km8, as part of the whole MTV celebration thingy. the pay was good so it was quite rewarding la. had to do ushering, crowd control, a little bit of callbacks for orders, and lotsa carrying of crates and cartons. the music was good, though later on i got real dizzy when they switched to those house and techno shit. the place was brimmed with many foreign nationals and impressionable talk-with-a-slang kids. it was comical to see people-who-think-they-can-dance actually dancing. haha.. macam cartoon man. and drunk people? whatever that comes out of their mouth are just nonsense. verbal or otherwise. teruk la.. well anyways i was concussed when i got home the next morning. went home and slept straightaway til the evening before meeting the gf for dinner.

dinner was great, shared with her abit of that hard-earned money eating pizza. yummeh. also got for meself a set of pants, and she got a pair of jeans. hehe. compulsive mebbe but who cares. i need variety.

the next few days saw me resuming work as per normal. boring but what to do. my body also ached due to the after-effects of carrying all those heavy stuff, so was pretty shagged out la. had our annual stocktake yesterday too, had to scan practically everything in the store. can you imagine that, every single disc. leceh leceh.

things aint all that bad for me though. managed to get all my intended modules for next semester within the first bidding round. saved me the trouble of checking CORS anymore. will therefore be taking religion, education, sexuality, family, and social inequalities. interesting stuff.. i likee..

and i renewed my broadband contract with Starhub, and they gave me an Xbox in return! woohooo..

but im broke right now. so yea gotta budget when the term starts.

well that's about it i guess whenever something happens there's always another thing underlying it. with good comes bad, with bad comes good. life's like that for me.

will be going off for a short break this weekend. a much needed breather. till then ya. oh and a Happy Hari Raya Haji and a belated New Year to all. cheers.