ramadhan

fasting month's here again. just as i was regaining back my slightly-lost appetite for all things edible. shucks that means im gonna be losing a little bit of weight again, which aint good given my already leaned frame. my metabolism's pretty high, thus with the enforced abstinence im sure the toll's gonna show. on the other hand, mebbe it might help cut down on the smoking part. itchy surely, but tahan.. well, never mind la, all in the name of faith and its intrinsic goodness. time to be good, time to behave.

had a dinner outing last saturday with the sociology honours classmates. twas fun, great food great company great bonding. feels a little less awkward now, among those that came. which is definitely a good thing. the aftermeal sheesha and sharing was also nice. thanks and kudos to those who helped organise it. speaking of which, a sports session is in the works for this upcoming friday. looking forward to that. yea yea...

mid-term "break" just started too. am supposed to be catching up with the tonnes of readings, and to start prepping myself for some upcoming assignments with deadlines fast approaching. hope i'd be able to be a bit more productive. hope IS the operating word here. haha..

on a sour note, had a mini-spat with the superior at work over the weekend. over some scheduling rostering shite. had kinda anticipated it happening when she first came into the picture, and now it finally did. though we're amicably cool and civil about it now, a bitter taste's left no doubt. definitely bitter. at times, it's just that i feel a tad underappreciated for all that i've done for the company. and how i scringed seeing how some are getting what they dont deserve and getting all sheltered for what mistakes and cockups they've done. wassup with that? ah well, gotta live with it i guess what with the status quo and all. i'll be gone for good next year. just hope that, in that time, my memories of working there wont be further tarnished. again, hope IS key here.

ok, shall try to go and read abit. 'nite people. much love to all. cheers..

sleepless..

most times, the grass will always appear to be greener on the other side. frankly speaking, i seriously do not know. perhaps it's just the vacuum playing tricks on me. that hole, that space, that emptiness. and perhaps it's finally getting to me. and eating me from inside. well, i have dealt with this before, and chances are, i will again. steely? i doubt so. just life at its merciless worst. i think.

having said that, thinking again, perhaps it was a little too premature for me to have thought of certain things in a certain way. too far-fetched, too unlikely. guess i was just harping on that little spectre of delusionment called hope.

*bites the bullet*

i need to go out more.

that aside, on to a little unfortunate piece of news, Bo got into an accident wednesday night. thankfully, nothing majorly serious and he suffered abrasions & cuts only. get well soon aite brudder? take care man.

contrary to the heading of this post, i need to head to bed soon. 'nite people.

reason why

I think about how it might have been
We'd spend our days travelin'
It's not that I don't understand you
It's not that I don't want to be with you
But you only wanted me
The way you wanted me

So, I will head out alone and hope for the best
And we can hang our heads down as we skip the goodbyes
You can tell the world what you want them to hear
I've got nothing left to lose, my dear
So, I'm up for the little white lies
But you and I know the reason why
I'm gone, and you're still there

I'll buy a magazine searching for your face
From coast to coast, or whatever I find my place
I'll track you on the radio, and I'll sign your list in a different name
But as close as I come to you
It's not the same

So, I will head out alone and hope for the best
We can pat ourselves on the back and say that we tried
And if one of us makes it big
We can spill our regrets
And talk about how the love never dies
But you and I know the reason why
I'm gone, and you're still there

So, steal the show, and do your best to cover
the tracks that I have left
I wish you well and hope you find whatever
you're looking for
The way I might've changed my mind, but you
only showed me the door

So, I will head out alone and hope for the best
We can pat ourselves on the back and say that we tried
And if one of us makes it big
We can spill our regrets
And talk about how the love never dies
But you and I know the reason why

- rachael yamagata

just a little update..

im supposed to be doing my readings, but cant seem to get started so i shall just ramble abit here.

well, its been 4 weeks of school now, and in 2 more, it's gonna be the midterm break. pretty fast huh. seriously im already way lagging in my readings, but its ok im starting to gear up a wee bit. just gotta be more productive and efficient at managing my time. well at least that's a start. think im gonna be staying back most days to read, no matter how little i cover, rather than to head straight back home and into the evils that belie in my room. haha.

school work aside, im kinda enjoying the honours year so far. yea i know i was ranting abit in one of my previous posts about the absence of those who've graduated. i do miss them. but funny thing is, with the smaller classes now, the remaining few people are opening up more, and it feels nice to get to know them abit better. after all these semesters of seeing the same familiar faces, finally everyone's starting to speak to one another. i guess everyone just takes a little time warming up ya.

it's been great too hanging out in the honours room, albeit the fact that it could probably do with a few more useful amenities. a better fridge, more sofas, tv perhaps? hehe. and its been fun too being around the dungeon. fun funny people. seems like everyone knows everyone there. i feel that that is where the heartbeat of the arts fac lie in. can eat, slack, talk cock, curse, swear, read (yes read), sleep, watch youtube, listen to itunes, etc etc. not some dingy aircon-ed room along the walkway to as6. what much have those people in there done for me? zilch. waste time only. and by the way i think i've upped the ante in my smoking intake too. which aint really something to be proud of. but ah well, beats the stress. plus amazingly there's more kakis now. best la best.

and somehow, just somehow, i look forward to school these days. well, gotta make the most of my last academic year!

ok back to readings. i hope. haha...