lovely..

Lulu Tobing

yes, i am a closet fan. hehe..

Life is bigger
It's bigger than you
And you are not me
The lengths that I will go to
The distance in your eyes
Oh no I've said too much
I set it up

That's me in the corner
That's me in the spotlight
Losing my religion
Trying to keep up with you
And I don't know if I can do it
Oh no I've said too much
I haven't said enough
I thought that I heard you laughing
I thought that I heard you sing
I think I thought I saw you try

Every whisper
Of every waking hour I'm
Choosing my confessions
Trying to keep an eye on you
Like a hurt lost and blinded fool
Oh no I've said too much
I set it up

Consider this
The hint of the century
Consider this
The slip that brought me
To my knees failed
What if all these fantasies
Come flailing around
Now I've said too much
I thought that I heard you laughing
I thought that I heard you sing
I think I thought I saw you try

But that was just a dream
That was just a dream ..

ok am finally done with the assignments, thank goodness it's all over... up next, the exams in probably about two weeks time. just hope that i have left enough in me to push this last hurdle. if i am really graduating this semester la. let's just wait and see, though chances are i would i guess..

just came back from 2nd trip to Johore via the 2nd link. went there with my cousin and his friend, unfortunately khaidir couldnt make it this time. perhaps next week or so yea bro? hehe.. it's quite economical i feel to pump petrol there, especially since it's relatively near my home. full tank over there can get about 25 ringgit, whereareas over here it'd have been for about 25 dollars. so it's just logical i guess. plus the added incentive of a cheap supper, cheap ciggies, and the thrill of testing the limits of the bike. hehe.. and to clear the carbon in the exhaust, or so they say. i managed to hit 170km/h, and that aint even at full throttle yet. maybe as i get more seasoned probably i might try higher la. hehe.

something interesting at work occured. a customer who's the manager at california fitness gym says he's been impressed by me and my work, ever since he started patronising the shop. nope nope he's not gay and he's married. well, he said that they are kinda looking for new blood in the company. so he sorta informally offered me to come for an interview and check out what they have to offer. if i were to join, seems like im gonna start at the ground level in being a trainer (in no way do i look fit enough to train people i think!), before slowly moving up into management level. gave me a card, and told me to think about it over the weekend la. hmm, im not sure, but it does sound attractive. like im being headhunted. hehe. how aye.. opinions?

i've got tickets for the rugby sevens this weekend, but sad thing is i aint sure if i would be able to go. half of tomorrow is occupied with work, while sunday i have some stuff to attend to. maybe will try and see if i can squeeze some time in to go to the stadium. anybody interested? free, no strings attached. seriousss.. well i just dont wanna waste them la, every year there's spare ones left unused.

my shoulder and neck area been feeling pretty tense. dont know if it's the muscles (whatever there is to it), or if it's the veins or whatnots. think i could do with a good massage. it's really bothering me. pain man.

im kinda at crossroads, i really dont know what to think of it anymore. i look around, and i see people happy no matter what shite they go through. why cant i ever get it right? im starting to think that maybe the fault/problems lie in me as an individual. man, my record speaks for itself. in a way. perhaps la, i dont know. maybe its some karmic thingy that's coming back to me to haunt me. but, even so, what have i ever done? headache la headache... yeash i am bothered by it all. just cause i've never been expressive about this kinda stuff doesnt mean im all fine and dandy nor am i bochap. it kills me inside, somehow. well, everybody has troubles. or cubaan they say. so mebbe this is the one sphere that im destined to face problems in la. we'll see...

ok enough of being a drama-mama and being all melancholic. no point. life's too short.

by the way april is looking like its gonna be a pretty hectic month for me. seems like im gonna have something on every weekend. plus the birthday is coming. damn another year is gonna pass. im really getting old(er). equals to more responsibilities, more priorities, more worries.

aite time to stop before this turns into an essay. gotta sleep, early shift tom. nite all.